I've been having a bit of a struggle mentally these past few weeks, partly why I've not been around much. It's been a combination of various things, and looming far larger than it needed to be was the upcoming November exhibition. The hobby I normally use as an escape from real life has become another job to do to get the layout up to standard in what was, with hindsight, an impossibly tight time frame with me now working full time. I was seeing the layout as another job, not the fun escapism it should be. To try and clear my head a bit, I had some time running the layout rather than modelling, and taking some time to enjoy the layout and the progress I've done up to now. Our hobby should always be fun, and done because we want to get enjoyment out of it, not because we have self imposed deadlines and standards to meet, and we shouldn't be putting pressure on ourselves to meet them at the cost of enjoying ourselves. I have a course of action, and that is to withdraw from the exhibition, take a break from big modelling jobs and work on some easy wins like detailing and finishing little jobs over the winter, and actually play with damn thing. This will hopefully put me in better place mentally to take the layout out locally next March, by then I'll have spent more time on it adding in different elements and feel something other than a slight resentment towards it. #eastglassonportauthority

Posted by Josh S at 2024-10-20 13:33:19 UTC